It has been two weeks. Two horrendous weeks. I am amazed at how my heart survived the pain. Visitation to the specialists did not show signs of any impending cardiac arrest but the palpitation is getting stronger every day. What could possibly be the cause then, I wonder? Could it be the one pack per day of nicotine inhalation? Maybe, but still, I doubt it.
The much needed sleep too did not happen. For two weeks now, I never failed to wake up at 3am each day. The waking hours will, inevitably, made me think more of the situation at hand. With that, triggers the palpitation. The deprivation of sleep had indeed affected me. Will there be anything else to help solve this problem? A small dosage of valium, perhaps?
Those around me did not notice anything amiss. How could they have noticed when I do not mope around. Having a stern professional looking face helped I supposed. Only the people who really cared noticed the sorrow behind that façade. It showed, they say, in my eyes. Behind that laughter lays an aching heart. I am blessed to have close friends who genuinely care. Friends, who had willingly and sincerely spent time with me in this time of need and who, untiringly stood by me.
The much needed sleep too did not happen. For two weeks now, I never failed to wake up at 3am each day. The waking hours will, inevitably, made me think more of the situation at hand. With that, triggers the palpitation. The deprivation of sleep had indeed affected me. Will there be anything else to help solve this problem? A small dosage of valium, perhaps?
Those around me did not notice anything amiss. How could they have noticed when I do not mope around. Having a stern professional looking face helped I supposed. Only the people who really cared noticed the sorrow behind that façade. It showed, they say, in my eyes. Behind that laughter lays an aching heart. I am blessed to have close friends who genuinely care. Friends, who had willingly and sincerely spent time with me in this time of need and who, untiringly stood by me.
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time heals babe. take care, u are strong & can do it
Raz
Recent events have certainly taken the wind out of your sails.Or have you been too busy working on your book. After reading your earlier short stories I thought they may be the basis for a book. What do you think?
Anonytikus
Tikus - They are indeed my character building exercises. Nothing to it. Are they convincing enough to pass of as true life events? What do you think?
I've slackened on writing as I've been badly hit by bronchitis. *kof* *kof* *kof*
gracetcp - Babe, thanks for your concern but I'm good (despite the cough). The monologues are just bits and pieces of my story lar...nothing critical.
I think this is truly a character building exercise as long as it doesnt consume you.It seems to me that you are experiencing true life events, but maybe I am easily fooled.The 'Art' is in making drama believable.If this is purely creative you must also have a theme you are working thru.Keep going and when I have time I'll have another read. Sorry about the pain in your life story & the kof* kof* etc. Can you do something about that?
I'm intoxicated with loads of meds for the kof. Am getting there. Thank you. :)
I'll be back with more character building. This time, of the antagonist.
So then you can speak from experience.Is it only a cliche? or Is it true for you? " no pain no gain" or growth or experince or learning or contribution and no book for that matter. Get fit and healthy and back on track.
Raz,
What's happening? Sounds bad! Need a doctor? ;p
Heard you're going back to Nerdland?
Shamster
SHAMSTER!!!!
I'm looking at next year! If I can afford it, that is! And of coz, if shortlisted at all :0
What do you think of Criminology?
Btw, how did u get the news?
Criminology? Excellent choice! Met Gavin at lunch sometime last week. I believe you told Mel about your plans? And Mel told James, James told Ian and...I think you get the picture. Yeah, boys bitch too! :))
Get well soon, beautiful! Let me know if you need anything else for that kof
Shamster
Aaarrggghhhh.....finally! Mel's been giving crap url to your blog!
Great stuff, RA! But please tell me they are from your creative mind and nothing is for real? :(
When are you coming this way, gorgeous? We missed you and your witty antics! Come lar come lar..
Luv
James
MCINTYRE! (I just love doing this in CAPS!)
How are things downunder? I might be in Melbourne in December, with luck! Heh! Would definitely call on ya when I'm in that part of the world. Okie dokey?
And, thank you for reading my crap entries. They are all fictitious indeed *whispers*
Hugs, Kisses & Giggles
RA
This is looking good! Now that we have everyone from Nerdland here, we could all do a freakshow! Calling for 2 more freaks! Calling for 2 more freaks!
AM
It's definitely getting crowded in here, issit not?
AM, which other freaks are you calling for? We've got everyone. Shamster, McIntyre, U (as the freakiest freak) and I (no freak):p
And, hellloooo! This is not a forum for freaks from Nerdland. Can we take this somewhere else? Check your YMs people!